I'm Done: Viszlát Hungary

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That day in Asotthalom and Öttömos was disappointingly realistic. My experience in Hungary with many "white" Hungarians has shown me time and time again, that hate is acceptable here, the norm. Yes, hate is everywhere and can be displayed in a variety if individuals the world round. I, am in Hungary; I've been coming here, living even for over thirteen years. What happens in Hungary was very relevant to my life, me. Today marks the day where, when, I no longer allow it to matter to me. Again, I know, this will prove a point for them, to a point. "We're a small country, no one knows or cares about us." Well, someone dis, for over thirteen years and that someone is now spiritually, emotionally and physically through, finished, done, complete, out. I can't express with enough emphasis the many times, the mountains of effort I've given and spent to prove some sort of loyalty to Hungary. I'm done. The increasing hate and willful ignorance here in Hungary is on a level of intense hopelessness and blatant disregard for difference, and a steadfast determination to remain staunchly prejudiced and judgmental. I no longer want my life to revolve in this dimension of toxic and contagious ignorance. I'm done. To all my friends aka family here in Hungary, thank you. Thank you for loving me, for showing me new things, for helping me to see myself, for being there, for me, for encouraging me, for being yourselves. I love you, all of you. I wish that the world was different, happier, more evolved, less hateful; it isn't. I know you experience hopelessness, despair and depression, sometimes on a daily basis; I want this to end, for your sakes and for the sake of this world. Again, I love you guys and I'm leaving. Meeting with as many of you as I can before I exit is the only thing keeping me here.

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