Thank You To My Selves

Yes, thank you Tammi in-the-present-moments, Tammi of-past-moments and Tammi waiting-in-future-moments. Specifically, Tammi in-the-present-moments is the muse for this post; currently, staying in a guesthouse with flashing Christmas lights intruding into my privacy through transparent curtains on one side of the room and an individual who has phone calls at eleven at night. As the curtains are see-through, I've put a sheet up over the cover to give myself privacy but this has blocked out the sunlight which I need. Now, my mood has negatively shifted and my appetite has decreased. The plan was to make today a semi-fasting day (I fast daily for sixteen hours) eating only fruit and nutrition bars but after the noise of last night/this morning (in addition there was drilling around noon time), my motivation has also decreased (though I exercised a bit this morning🌞). So, I sat here, in this chair (that I also use for exercising my abs) waiting, waiting for something to give me some sort of boost or jolt of energy that the nutrition bar and exercise didn't...then, a moment happened and something in my brain, not my gut, not my soul, my brain, something, someone in my brain said, 'We are going to get up from this chair, wash the apples with the juice from half of a peeled lemon, we are going to let the acid from the lemon cleanse the apples, we are going to eat the other half of the lemon and when are going to BE, not feel, better.' That someone on my brain was me, Tammi waiting-in-future-moments. Thank you. So now, the Tammi in-the-present-momennts that has become Tammi of-past-moments is now hungry and is experiencing brain drops of happiness within. I am hungry, I am content, I am grateful. Thank you to my selves.